Monday, September 13, 2010

Is this my life?

There are days, when I look around and think, is this really my life? Dirty laudry, dishes, carpets, dogs, my kid, something always needing to be cleaned, made, or fixed. Some days I fantasize about my life, had I made different decisions. Where I would be, what I would be doing. Some days I wish it was just me. Nothing and nobody to worry about being fed or clean. Some days I really want to be selfish and just think, worry and do things just for me.
I'm not unhappy with my life by any means, and I love my family and being a stay at home mom. Every once and a while though, my thoughts get the better of me. My life is amazing, I have a husband and son whom I adore. I am able to stay home with my son and be with him every day. I have a family who loves me, and friends that support me.
Sometimes though, I wish there was more to it. I truly miss school, learning new things, writing papers. And while I don't have to be in school to learn new things, it is still something I miss. In the future, I do plan on returning to school and getting a degree so I can teach hgh school english or history. In the future, we will buy our dream house and have another baby. Hopefully we won't still be in Tucson.
In the mean time, I will watch my son play in the back yard with the dog, teach him words, colors numbers and how to behave like a gentleman. I will maintain a home and cook delicious food. Manage a budget, and pay the bills. I will fix the toilet when it runs, and get grease out of my husbands shirts. I will paint my toes and curl my hair. I am a woman, a wife, a daughter, a sister, and a mom. This is my life and I love it. Most of the time! :)